what it means to surrender

what it means to surrender

Surrender, in the spiritual sense, can be a difficult concept.

In my experience, whenever I've heard someone say they're surrendered to God what follows is something horrible.

The god they're surrendering to doesn't resemble the God I know. The god speaking to them is a god of the ego or psychosis.

Perhaps it is because the word surrender is so often associated with the language of battle, it carries with it an energy something like defeat. 

If I surrender, then have I given up?

If I surrender, do I lose myself?

the love list

the love list

THIS WEEK I'M LOVING listening to every Tom Petty song (Oh, I'm so sorry to see you go, Tom) + opening up and actively listening at Wellness Circle + painting coffee cups (paintings of coffee cups, not painted cups) + fresh smashed guacamole+ deep study of Genesis and having some of my understandings of what scripture actually is confirmed + the rust and golden mums on everybody's front porch