what's in your cup?

Do you meditate?

When I was in upper elementary and early middle school, there were a few books that I checked out over and over again from my school library.

One of these was a book about transcendental meditation. I remember the first time I checked it out, being uncontrollably drawn to it. I had no idea what TM meant but it felt like something I needed to know.

I can’t say, though, that I started meditating when I was in elementary school. I wish I had.


As I went along in my life, haunting library shelves and used book stores, reading all sorts of books about every sort of spiritual thing, I consistently ran across the concept of meditation - as in silent sitting meditation.

It sounded great. It sounded true. It sounded like the very thing I needed to be doing but for years, I pushed it away.

I was good with guided meditation, listening to music.

I liked to lie down on a table in a soothing environment and receive work - like massage or Reiki or acupuncture, and I loved my salt baths, but there was something about sitting with a straight spine and my eyes closed that felt almost scary to me.

I would say, isn’t that weird, except that I don’t think it is weird. I think a lot of people feel this way.

I’ve many times had a client ask me for advice then quickly add, don’t tell me to meditate!

Do you resist it?

The thing is, there’s a reason everyone tells you to meditate.

There’s a reason why every spiritual tradition (yes, even Christianity) asks you to sit down, close your eyes, and be quiet.

Through silent meditation (or contemplative prayer - I don’t draw a distinction between these two things), you hook in to your essence. You plug in to God. You feel and remember your divine nature. You begin to hear the voice of God within you.

Maybe we resist meditation because we think it’s going to be uncomfortable or boring. Maybe we’re so conditioned to believe our moral fiber depends upon us doing all the time, not doing seems wrong somehow.

Maybe we resist it because intuitively we know, it’s where the truth lies. It’s where our answers are. Maybe we push meditation away when we don’t feel ready to look at that truth.

Maybe we’re working really hard at denying our emotions and we don’t want to feel them.

Maybe we’re working really hard at changing our thoughts and we fear hearing them as they actually are.

Maybe we’ve believed the teaching that meditation is about emptying the mind of thought (it’s not) and we know we can’t do that.

It could be anything really - the reason why we balk at the notion that everything begins in silent meditation - but the reasons don’t really matter.

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The thing is, meditation is the where everything begins.

Now, I love a good guided meditation - but it’s not the same thing.

The truth is in the silence.

That’s why I’ve made silent meditation the heart of Fill Up Your Cup, an 11-day email course designed to help you develop a daily spiritual self-care practice.

There are other things included in this course - journal writing, energy work, intuitive development, some chakra flow - but even if you gloss over all the other stuff and simply sit in meditation every day, you will experience transformation.

I can’t say what sort of transformation or how you will experience it.

I can say that going within will change your life.

Is self-care selfish?

Self-care is a bit of a hot button term.

It sounds like selfishness. Or spiritual bypassing.

I mean, the world is literally and figuratively burning right now. Should you really be tending to self care?

Well, I say yes. You should.

You can’t pour from an empty cup.

What if, my beloved, you are a vessel?

What if you are a cup?

What is the energy flowing in you right now?

What is it you have to give - to your relationships? To your work? To the world?

I created Fill Up Your Cup to help you pour into yourself the essence of who and what you really are and expand your heart, expand your capacity to love.

Because that’s what the world needs, isn’t it?

There are times when sitting in silence will be uncomfortable, but the more you do it, the more easily you will sink - when you close your eyes and breathe - into the net of God.

You may, at first, feel yourself falling.

But it’s God who catches you.

It’s God who holds you.

It’s a beautiful feeling and I want to share it with you.

Join me?