what it means to surrender

what it means to surrender

Surrender, in the spiritual sense, can be a difficult concept.

In my experience, whenever I've heard someone say they're surrendered to God what follows is something horrible.

The god they're surrendering to doesn't resemble the God I know. The god speaking to them is a god of the ego or psychosis.

Perhaps it is because the word surrender is so often associated with the language of battle, it carries with it an energy something like defeat. 

If I surrender, then have I given up?

If I surrender, do I lose myself?