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They say you have to work on yourself first before you can learn to be in a relationship. Like most things they say, this isn’t true. You can learn love on your own or with another person. You will learn it, one way or another.

I have been in a relationship for twenty-four years. There is an ease to the way we are together, a genuineness, and a mutual admiration. It took a while to get to this place, and I don’t think we could have found it if it hadn’t been for all the years prior, the mistakes we made with other people and one another, the love we traversed, processed, and were wounded by.

The people who have hurt me the most in life are the people I have loved the most, so it stands to reason that I am also the person who has hurt them the most. I say this as a reminder that when it comes to the pain of love, I place no blame. I take responsibility for the unhappiness I have accepted and manufactured. I know I am the villain in more than one story. That is a price I pay for taking on the curriculum.

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